It has been a good month, and the weather is doing it's crazy thing. Really hot this week and last week was really cool. The yards are loving the heat as there hasn't been much to speak of this summer.
Isaac absolutely loves kindergarten and I am so proud of him. Hannah and I pick him up on Mondays after school. I love seeing his face light up when he sees us outside the door:) The first day he yelled out "Gramma" and the whole class turned around and smiled. Yeah, they all know who gramma's are:) He is doing great and has made a good friend named Jack. He is so shy like his dad was at this age. I love this little guy so much.
Corky has been working a swing shift at work so he is gone by 12:00 and home by 11:00 pm. It will probably be this way until after the holidays. Not a lot of time to do much when we sleep until 7:00 am. And he only gets to see Hannah right now on Monday mornings. He really misses them and they miss him a lot too. I am thankful for his job and know it won't be forever but he is so in love with these two kids!
Hannah is the apple of his eye:)
I have been working on myself since my last post and am making progress in little steps. I appreciate the prayers of those who still come here. They mean a lot to me and I can feel them. I have been eating healthier and curbing some bad habits too. I've been working in the yards and keeping things pruned back so they don't get out of hand.
It's hard to believe tomorrow is October 1st. I am glad it will be Friday and Corky will be home for the weekend. I need to go buy Iron Man 2 tomorrow so we can watch it over the weekend.
My heart is really heavy for Connie and John Thompson. Mallorie Rose who was almost 4 died almost two weeks ago and I can't imagine the pain they are going through. She was one of my Trisomy Sweethearts who proved that her quality of life was wonderful and just perfect the way God created her. She is healed but the family is left with an empty spot in their home and hearts. I loved her and I miss her so much. She taught me so much in her full little life.
I hope everyone has a great weekend and that you feel God's blessings all around you. They are everywhere:)
Love and Hugs, Laurie
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Pruning My Gardens as God Prunes Me...
So I have been working in my gardens and pruning things back so they are in some kind of control:) My gardens are more of a free-form jungle as all of my tropical plants are growing by leaps and bounds. I love vines and have them everywhere and in order to keep them healthy and happy, I need to wack them back. God and I have good conversations while I am doing this and it makes the time so sweet and sweaty.:) When I don't tend to these things, the old dead layer remains under the beautiful new growth of jasmine that smells heavenly.
God has been showing me that my life is the same in many ways. He is showing me the old things that still need pruning out in my own life and it sometimes hurts to see the truth. My biggest challenge is taking care of me now. Because of my childhood, it is easy to take care of those I love and neglect myself. And neglect myself I have done. Working on me is a painful process and I have been informed by God that I do not love myself as He wants me to. I need to lose 55 pounds, taking meds for high cholesterol and my blood pressure is higher than it should be. I am ashamed to admit that I am a smoker. It makes me feel like such a hypocrite and I have hung on to this crutch forever. I need to get to the dentist and get some serious work done on my teeth and it won't be cheap. I don't remember how long it's been since I have smiled face to face with someone, except Isaac and Hannah. I miss smiling so much and laughing is my drug of choice:) It has been two years since my last mammogram and this is not smart after being 14 years free of breast cancer. I know God holds me but can you believe He now wants me to help Him? :) If I don't do it for any other reason I need to do it so I can watch my treasures grow up. They love me so much and they need their grandma.
So, that is what I am dealing with at this stage of my life and I need encouragement to stay with this learning curve I am in. I covet any and all prayers and encouragement as it is easier to neglect myself than to nurture the me God wants me to be at 62. Childhood abuse is a real soul crusher that follows a person through their lifetime, in one form or another. So much has healed, but now we are down to me and it just hurts.
Please pray for Kelli as she waits for her transplant. I have much to learn from her example of patience and grace. Thank you for stopping by as my lack of posting has lost me followers. I am just trying to navigate my way through this time.
Love and Hugs, Laurie
God has been showing me that my life is the same in many ways. He is showing me the old things that still need pruning out in my own life and it sometimes hurts to see the truth. My biggest challenge is taking care of me now. Because of my childhood, it is easy to take care of those I love and neglect myself. And neglect myself I have done. Working on me is a painful process and I have been informed by God that I do not love myself as He wants me to. I need to lose 55 pounds, taking meds for high cholesterol and my blood pressure is higher than it should be. I am ashamed to admit that I am a smoker. It makes me feel like such a hypocrite and I have hung on to this crutch forever. I need to get to the dentist and get some serious work done on my teeth and it won't be cheap. I don't remember how long it's been since I have smiled face to face with someone, except Isaac and Hannah. I miss smiling so much and laughing is my drug of choice:) It has been two years since my last mammogram and this is not smart after being 14 years free of breast cancer. I know God holds me but can you believe He now wants me to help Him? :) If I don't do it for any other reason I need to do it so I can watch my treasures grow up. They love me so much and they need their grandma.
So, that is what I am dealing with at this stage of my life and I need encouragement to stay with this learning curve I am in. I covet any and all prayers and encouragement as it is easier to neglect myself than to nurture the me God wants me to be at 62. Childhood abuse is a real soul crusher that follows a person through their lifetime, in one form or another. So much has healed, but now we are down to me and it just hurts.
Please pray for Kelli as she waits for her transplant. I have much to learn from her example of patience and grace. Thank you for stopping by as my lack of posting has lost me followers. I am just trying to navigate my way through this time.
Love and Hugs, Laurie
Thursday, September 2, 2010
August Out--September In--And Jimmy On My Mind...
Well, August flew by and I didn't get one post on here. No excuses will work:)
Today, the 2nd of September came so quickly, it honestly did. On my calendar is written "Jimmy in heaven for one year". I can't believe the time has gone by so fast and that Jimmy has been gone from here and in heaven with the Lord, Kelly his wife, Jack his father in law and many others we have known for many years. This is hard for me to sit here right now and try to say how much I miss you Jimmy....
We have known each other for all but the first 17 years. We grew up together here at the beach from that time to just one year ago when you left. The best friend to Corky and me always, absolutely always. You were the first to meet the twins when we brought them home in the laundry basket:) You became their Uncle Jimmy from that day forward and you are truly loved as their uncle. You were the only one we trusted to watch them the few times we needed to get out:) You let them jump all over you and chase around the house till they were worn out, and you were laughing the entire time. That "Jimmy belly laugh" that sounds like a thousand smiles:) I miss that laugh so much.
At each and every party we have had here in the past 34 years, you were here helping right along side us, enjoying every moment. The boys 18th birthday party with live band in the backyard. Around 250 kids, helping be one of the "bouncers" along with Rick and Bob and Danny.
You helped Corky coach the boys soccer teams through the years and became all the kids Uncle Jimmy. Our team name-Outlaws- and we were. Most of the boys were having troubles at home with divorcing parents and lives falling apart, but they all felt safe with you and Corky, letting them vent and really listening to them was such a ministry you guys gave them. They even ran away to our house:)
I can't even begin to write about all the memories I have in my heart because there are so many years of them stored up in there. But I have to do this because I haven't allowed myself to grieve for you, it hurts too much but I need to do it, a little bit at a time.
One of the biggest blessings was the night of Josh and Erin's rehearsal dinner in the backyard garden. Corky cooked his famous spaghetti and I baked five cheesecakes and we had the yard fixed up pretty special for them. You and Kelly honored Josh's request and served the dinner to the 36 guests. You two were so great and warm and chatting with everyone. You made it so special and you kept my sanity from cracking as the events unfolded that day, the day before THE WEDDING DAY and anything that could go wrong, did. You laughed and help get things organized, ran to give Eric a jump for his dead battery twice on his way to pick up all the guys tuxes and get to the rehearsal. Using your AAA road card to tow Corky off the freeway offramp just before our turnoff to home, so close but he had to pick up his tux. He was so stiff for the rest of the week, hitting a military humvee going 60 mph to a complete stop.
You had the totalled truck towed and parked in the driveway and covered it with Janes tarp so I would not have to see it when guests started arriving after the rehearsal. I had to not think about it until after the wedding was over. I would have fallen apart. The devil was working overtime that afternoon. But you just looked at me and laughed and said the devil can just go to hell. We agreed and made our way through to the most beautiful evening that held so much meaning for us to have you as our family.
My only regret over all these years is the thing that cuts into my heart the most when I remember how much our neighbor hurt you with his ignorance. It rocked our world that Christmas and I watched you in so much pain and knew in my heart you would never hurt a child, ever. His apology, a few years too late felt so empty and yet it was at least admitted. I work on that forgiveness daily and it is not easy running into him from time to time. I haven't told him you are gone. He does not deserve to know. He does not understand the depth of the damage to ones spirit.
Jimmy, I know that you are healed and at the weight you always wanted to be. You were always teased for being overweight and I know it hurt you. Corky and I loved you just the way you were, the most perfect friend with the biggest heart!! No one can fill your shoes or big pants for that matter Jimmy. You are one of a kind and I am so thankful to have God put us all together in this life. You have always been our "Big Jimmy" with love and respect in our hearts. Thank you for telling me over the years that I didn't have to go to your funeral. You wanted to be remembered as you were the last time we saw each other. I am so thankful you had said that. I could not go to your funeral, I just could not let you go that soon. I am sorry but know you already forgive me. I love the memories I am thinking on as I go about my day and talk to the Lord. I know we will see eachother again in heaven and I am so glad. It is just the absence of you here that makes my heart hurt. I now understand when people say just one more day would be nice. But it would never be enough. I love and miss you Big Jimmy, so very much today.
Love and Hugs, Laurie (your sister)
Today, the 2nd of September came so quickly, it honestly did. On my calendar is written "Jimmy in heaven for one year". I can't believe the time has gone by so fast and that Jimmy has been gone from here and in heaven with the Lord, Kelly his wife, Jack his father in law and many others we have known for many years. This is hard for me to sit here right now and try to say how much I miss you Jimmy....
We have known each other for all but the first 17 years. We grew up together here at the beach from that time to just one year ago when you left. The best friend to Corky and me always, absolutely always. You were the first to meet the twins when we brought them home in the laundry basket:) You became their Uncle Jimmy from that day forward and you are truly loved as their uncle. You were the only one we trusted to watch them the few times we needed to get out:) You let them jump all over you and chase around the house till they were worn out, and you were laughing the entire time. That "Jimmy belly laugh" that sounds like a thousand smiles:) I miss that laugh so much.
At each and every party we have had here in the past 34 years, you were here helping right along side us, enjoying every moment. The boys 18th birthday party with live band in the backyard. Around 250 kids, helping be one of the "bouncers" along with Rick and Bob and Danny.
You helped Corky coach the boys soccer teams through the years and became all the kids Uncle Jimmy. Our team name-Outlaws- and we were. Most of the boys were having troubles at home with divorcing parents and lives falling apart, but they all felt safe with you and Corky, letting them vent and really listening to them was such a ministry you guys gave them. They even ran away to our house:)
I can't even begin to write about all the memories I have in my heart because there are so many years of them stored up in there. But I have to do this because I haven't allowed myself to grieve for you, it hurts too much but I need to do it, a little bit at a time.
One of the biggest blessings was the night of Josh and Erin's rehearsal dinner in the backyard garden. Corky cooked his famous spaghetti and I baked five cheesecakes and we had the yard fixed up pretty special for them. You and Kelly honored Josh's request and served the dinner to the 36 guests. You two were so great and warm and chatting with everyone. You made it so special and you kept my sanity from cracking as the events unfolded that day, the day before THE WEDDING DAY and anything that could go wrong, did. You laughed and help get things organized, ran to give Eric a jump for his dead battery twice on his way to pick up all the guys tuxes and get to the rehearsal. Using your AAA road card to tow Corky off the freeway offramp just before our turnoff to home, so close but he had to pick up his tux. He was so stiff for the rest of the week, hitting a military humvee going 60 mph to a complete stop.
You had the totalled truck towed and parked in the driveway and covered it with Janes tarp so I would not have to see it when guests started arriving after the rehearsal. I had to not think about it until after the wedding was over. I would have fallen apart. The devil was working overtime that afternoon. But you just looked at me and laughed and said the devil can just go to hell. We agreed and made our way through to the most beautiful evening that held so much meaning for us to have you as our family.
My only regret over all these years is the thing that cuts into my heart the most when I remember how much our neighbor hurt you with his ignorance. It rocked our world that Christmas and I watched you in so much pain and knew in my heart you would never hurt a child, ever. His apology, a few years too late felt so empty and yet it was at least admitted. I work on that forgiveness daily and it is not easy running into him from time to time. I haven't told him you are gone. He does not deserve to know. He does not understand the depth of the damage to ones spirit.
Jimmy, I know that you are healed and at the weight you always wanted to be. You were always teased for being overweight and I know it hurt you. Corky and I loved you just the way you were, the most perfect friend with the biggest heart!! No one can fill your shoes or big pants for that matter Jimmy. You are one of a kind and I am so thankful to have God put us all together in this life. You have always been our "Big Jimmy" with love and respect in our hearts. Thank you for telling me over the years that I didn't have to go to your funeral. You wanted to be remembered as you were the last time we saw each other. I am so thankful you had said that. I could not go to your funeral, I just could not let you go that soon. I am sorry but know you already forgive me. I love the memories I am thinking on as I go about my day and talk to the Lord. I know we will see eachother again in heaven and I am so glad. It is just the absence of you here that makes my heart hurt. I now understand when people say just one more day would be nice. But it would never be enough. I love and miss you Big Jimmy, so very much today.
Love and Hugs, Laurie (your sister)
Thursday, July 8, 2010
First Week Of July Over..............
Since I am not getting any younger as this year is half over, I thought I'd better get on here and chat a bit:) Isaac and Hannah are finally well!!!! After three months of crap and misdiagnosis, Isaacs horrific sinus infection is finally gone and he is back to being himself in technicolor:) He slept through the best part of his birthday party, campfire and s'mores and stories:( He was so exhausted and sinus infection not diagnosed yet. That was the end of May. Grandpa promised him a trip to the toy store for his birthday present. He was well to go yesterday when grandpa got home from work:) He told both of them to go potty and get in the car to go shopping. They were ready in a flash. I have to tell you here that Hannah decided about three weeks ago to potty train herself and wears her Dora underwear proudly.:) I can't believe that she took it all on herself to do this. She is 2 1/2 now and is such a crackup kid. She had a meltdown when she had an accident and peed her Dora panties. I really had to console her and make her laugh. Sheesh, it is so strange to see her do this on her own. Her mom and I are amazed and just smile when she does the "happy dance" when she is finished:)
Life here has been good and I have no complaints. Corky's job continues and we are so darned grateful for this. Health insurance costs went up, what's new? But we are glad it's there. We had a quiet Forth of July watching movies, Nascar, World Cup and in bed by 8:00pm. The fireworks didn't even wake us up:) Ahh, the life of ex-party animals, still alive to be here and laugh about it. On August 10th we will be celebrating our 42 years of marriage. Holy Cow, what a journey it has been to get to here. Truly a God Thing let me tell you. And we agree that with exception of the aches and pains, these are the best years now, being parents of two great adult sons and two of the greatest grandkids.
I've been trying my best to keep up with the yards so they don't get out of control again. Especially all of my vines:) They remind me of my personal life and how it gets out of control so easily when I don't pay attention. But pruning is good for me right? And I am headed for some pruning with much resistance. When will I ever grow up?
I need to get back into taking pictures of the grandkids when they are here so I can start posting them here again. They are growing up so fast and I am so proud of them.
That's it for now and if anyone still comes here, have a great day!!
Love and Hugs, Laurie
Life here has been good and I have no complaints. Corky's job continues and we are so darned grateful for this. Health insurance costs went up, what's new? But we are glad it's there. We had a quiet Forth of July watching movies, Nascar, World Cup and in bed by 8:00pm. The fireworks didn't even wake us up:) Ahh, the life of ex-party animals, still alive to be here and laugh about it. On August 10th we will be celebrating our 42 years of marriage. Holy Cow, what a journey it has been to get to here. Truly a God Thing let me tell you. And we agree that with exception of the aches and pains, these are the best years now, being parents of two great adult sons and two of the greatest grandkids.
I've been trying my best to keep up with the yards so they don't get out of control again. Especially all of my vines:) They remind me of my personal life and how it gets out of control so easily when I don't pay attention. But pruning is good for me right? And I am headed for some pruning with much resistance. When will I ever grow up?
I need to get back into taking pictures of the grandkids when they are here so I can start posting them here again. They are growing up so fast and I am so proud of them.
That's it for now and if anyone still comes here, have a great day!!
Love and Hugs, Laurie
Friday, May 14, 2010
Another Month Just Flew By.............
I should have known that getting back to posting here wouldn't be easy. What was I thinking? It is Spring (still) and this is when I come out of my winter hibernation. I have been enjoying working in the yards so much, keeping the vines tamed, plants all happy and growing, getting the lawns to fill back in. We have lots of birds feeding out of the feeders and a new family of babies learning how to fly outside my office window. Jake the dog and Amos the huge cat just lay around and watch them go back and forth. The weather has been amazing this Spring, just beautiful. The night blooming jasmine is bursting with the most heavenly smells that drift in the bedroom window while we are sleeping. I just love Spring. I was born in it, come out of hibernation in it, and everything grows new in it.:)
Isaac and Hannah are doing a sleepover tonight at our house. Dad is using the money we gave him for his 39th birthday (holy cow my boys are getting older) to treat mom to dinner and a movie and have some alone time they desperately need. We, on the other hand are looking forward to keeping them up a bit later and snacking. I know it's bad but we are grandpa and grandma. No rules for us:) Isaac will turn 5 on the 26th. He has grown so fast and continues to be my favorite grandson ever born. He just melts my heart to puddles with those big baby blue eyes. I bought a butterfly habitat for his birthday but it came the following day so we are in full butterfly nursery here and have 10 growing caterpillars that will be ready to put into the habitat next week. The kids are loving it and Hannah wants to hold them and rock them. Umm, not right now if you want to see them turn into "Painted Ladys".
Hannah is 2 1/2 and her vocabulary is totally through the roof. I think Isaac has helped that along quite a bit too:) She is in love with Grandpa and plays him like a fiddle. He is always catching himself getting ready to give in to those huge blue eyes and has to stop himself. There hasn't been a girl in the family for quite some time and this one takes the prize. So spirited and happy almost all of the time. Throw in a little "Drama Queen" with this girly girl and tom boy and she is a great mix. Isaac and Hannah have acquired the genetics for a warped sense of humor that only shows up in one family each generation and they can crack eachother up and get the giggles going. Then come the corny jokes between them. Their bond is thick though they can really tease eachother too. Hannah is our most favorite little girl in the world. It makes for a nice balance. I wonder if these alone times we give their parents could accidentally produce a third grandchild. They aren't planning but we know how plans go:) We have enough love to go around if the energy holds up:)
Corky's job continues to be a huge blessing for us. He works hard and is such a faithful employee. We don't take anything for granted during these unstable times but are so thankful as he just passed his 10 year mark that he is still there. And I have to say that he is loved by all in this company. I sure love him tons too and thank him for me getting to be a stay at home grandma too. I am always available any time they call. I love being a part of their lives and knowing they are safe with us.
I better close for now but if anyone still comes here, I am asking that you pray for my sweet friend Kelli as the live kidney donor hunt is on and one still needs to be found. I know God has a plan for her but it hasn't been revealed to her yet. Four years is a long time to be doing this and she needs His strength moment by moment. Thanks so much.
Love and Hugs, Laurie
Isaac and Hannah are doing a sleepover tonight at our house. Dad is using the money we gave him for his 39th birthday (holy cow my boys are getting older) to treat mom to dinner and a movie and have some alone time they desperately need. We, on the other hand are looking forward to keeping them up a bit later and snacking. I know it's bad but we are grandpa and grandma. No rules for us:) Isaac will turn 5 on the 26th. He has grown so fast and continues to be my favorite grandson ever born. He just melts my heart to puddles with those big baby blue eyes. I bought a butterfly habitat for his birthday but it came the following day so we are in full butterfly nursery here and have 10 growing caterpillars that will be ready to put into the habitat next week. The kids are loving it and Hannah wants to hold them and rock them. Umm, not right now if you want to see them turn into "Painted Ladys".
Hannah is 2 1/2 and her vocabulary is totally through the roof. I think Isaac has helped that along quite a bit too:) She is in love with Grandpa and plays him like a fiddle. He is always catching himself getting ready to give in to those huge blue eyes and has to stop himself. There hasn't been a girl in the family for quite some time and this one takes the prize. So spirited and happy almost all of the time. Throw in a little "Drama Queen" with this girly girl and tom boy and she is a great mix. Isaac and Hannah have acquired the genetics for a warped sense of humor that only shows up in one family each generation and they can crack eachother up and get the giggles going. Then come the corny jokes between them. Their bond is thick though they can really tease eachother too. Hannah is our most favorite little girl in the world. It makes for a nice balance. I wonder if these alone times we give their parents could accidentally produce a third grandchild. They aren't planning but we know how plans go:) We have enough love to go around if the energy holds up:)
Corky's job continues to be a huge blessing for us. He works hard and is such a faithful employee. We don't take anything for granted during these unstable times but are so thankful as he just passed his 10 year mark that he is still there. And I have to say that he is loved by all in this company. I sure love him tons too and thank him for me getting to be a stay at home grandma too. I am always available any time they call. I love being a part of their lives and knowing they are safe with us.
I better close for now but if anyone still comes here, I am asking that you pray for my sweet friend Kelli as the live kidney donor hunt is on and one still needs to be found. I know God has a plan for her but it hasn't been revealed to her yet. Four years is a long time to be doing this and she needs His strength moment by moment. Thanks so much.
Love and Hugs, Laurie
Monday, April 12, 2010
Monday And A New Week Ahead...
We had a wonderful April shower that hit about 3:00am. It woke me up and sounded so good. I hope it washed tons of pollen away and I know the yards loved it too.
In February my son Eric asked if we would have a surprise party for his wife on their second wedding anniversary. They didn't have a wedding or reception when they got married. The date? April 3rd. The day after Good Friday and the day before Easter Sunday. Okay... We got tons of yardwork done and spring cleaning too. It was a rush to get it all done in time and my Sis in law and I worked our butts off!!! The yards and trees got cut back quite a lot and are now happy and blooming. The party was great and it was so good to see some of their friends and their kids. Just like old times in the yard. So many parties have taken place back there over the 34 years we have lived here. Corky made spaghetti and I baked cheesecakes. Sis and I got buzzed on Strawberry Margaritas and enjoyed the fruits of all our labor. We swore this was the last time yet we have been thinking about the next one:) It was sweet to watch Isaac share "HIS" yard with all the kids that came. He got to help his Uncle Eric build a new set of stairs to the upper yard, using a lot of the old things I had hanging around. They turned out great.
Easter Sunday I got to meet "Logan" who was born February 2nd. He is Annie's new baby. Annie is one of the three sisters who had been my neighbors since they were born. I have been their surrogate mom since they lost their mom to cancer back in 1994. This baby is so healthy, gorgeous and loved. Their dad remarried and still lives next door. Martina, his wife is in labor right now with her first baby. A new brother or sister for Annie, Kristina and Melissa:) The girls all live in Venice and Beverly Hills now but I always see them when they come down to their dads. I will be seeing a lot of them now with the new baby too. This is their home away from home. I love these girls so much.
Isaac and Hannah will be here soon so I will close for now and get ready for a fun day with them. I hope everyone has a wonderful day.
Love and Hugs, Laurie
In February my son Eric asked if we would have a surprise party for his wife on their second wedding anniversary. They didn't have a wedding or reception when they got married. The date? April 3rd. The day after Good Friday and the day before Easter Sunday. Okay... We got tons of yardwork done and spring cleaning too. It was a rush to get it all done in time and my Sis in law and I worked our butts off!!! The yards and trees got cut back quite a lot and are now happy and blooming. The party was great and it was so good to see some of their friends and their kids. Just like old times in the yard. So many parties have taken place back there over the 34 years we have lived here. Corky made spaghetti and I baked cheesecakes. Sis and I got buzzed on Strawberry Margaritas and enjoyed the fruits of all our labor. We swore this was the last time yet we have been thinking about the next one:) It was sweet to watch Isaac share "HIS" yard with all the kids that came. He got to help his Uncle Eric build a new set of stairs to the upper yard, using a lot of the old things I had hanging around. They turned out great.
Easter Sunday I got to meet "Logan" who was born February 2nd. He is Annie's new baby. Annie is one of the three sisters who had been my neighbors since they were born. I have been their surrogate mom since they lost their mom to cancer back in 1994. This baby is so healthy, gorgeous and loved. Their dad remarried and still lives next door. Martina, his wife is in labor right now with her first baby. A new brother or sister for Annie, Kristina and Melissa:) The girls all live in Venice and Beverly Hills now but I always see them when they come down to their dads. I will be seeing a lot of them now with the new baby too. This is their home away from home. I love these girls so much.
Isaac and Hannah will be here soon so I will close for now and get ready for a fun day with them. I hope everyone has a wonderful day.
Love and Hugs, Laurie
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Almost Six Months Have Flown By...
I have no idea if anyone even stops by here anymore and that's okay. It has almost been six months since I last posted. I am still trying to get things in order around here, both inside the house and outside in the yards. It is coming along but still lots to do. The same is true with my spiritual life and God is showing me how patient He is with me. Be still, know that He is God, and keep moving forward with Him.
The holidays were wonderful, all of them. It is my nature to hibernate in the winter and this season was no exception. When I hibernate, I go inward on myself, looking back to where I came from, the things that have been healed and the things that need work. I am a work in progress and am so thankful that God is not in a hurry with me:) I am in a hurry with myself and am learning to chill out.
I turned 62 in March and in my heart I feel younger than I ever thought possible. The outward appearance is showing the wear and tear of so many years, but my heart keeps getting younger as I work on myself. Isaac and Hannah make me young at heart too. These two treasures never cease to amaze me in feeling loved. They just love me, discipline and all. I would never do anything that would hurt them, physically or spiritually, risking losing their trust. I was hurt deeply when I was their age and life made no sense to me. I heal little pieces of that life everytime I do something right with them and the response I get in return is hugs and kisses and love. The way it should be for all children. I am so blessed to be a part of my own healing process as I love these kids, and my own sons with all my heart. Healing is a slow and steady process with many potholes along the way, but healing is the active adjective that keeps occurring along the way. And I am learning to accept myself more like God does.
I have some prayer requests that I would like to share:
1. Kelli needs a kidney. Her list of transplant possibilities is empty now. I know that this is when God does His best work and I am asking that you remember my dear friend who needs His touch now. I love her and my heart hurts for her to get the miracle only He can provide.
2. Mallorie had surgery and I am praying for her to have a completely successful recovery and that it solves the problems she has been having. She is such a wonderful little girl as is Annabel, who needs our prayers too. And their mommies Cathy and Connie who are my dear friends.
3. Emma Grace, "Especially Heather's" daughter who has been in the hospital fighting for her precious life. Heather and her husband need prayer too. I can't imagine the pain they are in, watching their daughter go through so much.
There are many more but these are my "urgents".
Life has been blessed and I have no complaints, only praise and thankfulness. Corky's job continues to hold on through these hard days for so many and I know we are not out of the woods by a long shot. We just keep trusting Him and He is faithful.
I am loving Spring and working in the yards, getting dirty and knowing something pretty is to follow:) The dandelions are in full bloom, I don't pull them anymore since they are Asher's flowers now:). I love to watch Isaac and Hannah blow the seeds into the air with huge smiles on their faces. I see it as spreading the love:)
Well, that's all for now, more to come in the days ahead, even if I am only writing to myself the words I need to hear and remember. Happy Spring everyone. Hey, do me a favor and let me know if you are here okay?
Love and Hugs, Laurie
The holidays were wonderful, all of them. It is my nature to hibernate in the winter and this season was no exception. When I hibernate, I go inward on myself, looking back to where I came from, the things that have been healed and the things that need work. I am a work in progress and am so thankful that God is not in a hurry with me:) I am in a hurry with myself and am learning to chill out.
I turned 62 in March and in my heart I feel younger than I ever thought possible. The outward appearance is showing the wear and tear of so many years, but my heart keeps getting younger as I work on myself. Isaac and Hannah make me young at heart too. These two treasures never cease to amaze me in feeling loved. They just love me, discipline and all. I would never do anything that would hurt them, physically or spiritually, risking losing their trust. I was hurt deeply when I was their age and life made no sense to me. I heal little pieces of that life everytime I do something right with them and the response I get in return is hugs and kisses and love. The way it should be for all children. I am so blessed to be a part of my own healing process as I love these kids, and my own sons with all my heart. Healing is a slow and steady process with many potholes along the way, but healing is the active adjective that keeps occurring along the way. And I am learning to accept myself more like God does.
I have some prayer requests that I would like to share:
1. Kelli needs a kidney. Her list of transplant possibilities is empty now. I know that this is when God does His best work and I am asking that you remember my dear friend who needs His touch now. I love her and my heart hurts for her to get the miracle only He can provide.
2. Mallorie had surgery and I am praying for her to have a completely successful recovery and that it solves the problems she has been having. She is such a wonderful little girl as is Annabel, who needs our prayers too. And their mommies Cathy and Connie who are my dear friends.
3. Emma Grace, "Especially Heather's" daughter who has been in the hospital fighting for her precious life. Heather and her husband need prayer too. I can't imagine the pain they are in, watching their daughter go through so much.
There are many more but these are my "urgents".
Life has been blessed and I have no complaints, only praise and thankfulness. Corky's job continues to hold on through these hard days for so many and I know we are not out of the woods by a long shot. We just keep trusting Him and He is faithful.
I am loving Spring and working in the yards, getting dirty and knowing something pretty is to follow:) The dandelions are in full bloom, I don't pull them anymore since they are Asher's flowers now:). I love to watch Isaac and Hannah blow the seeds into the air with huge smiles on their faces. I see it as spreading the love:)
Well, that's all for now, more to come in the days ahead, even if I am only writing to myself the words I need to hear and remember. Happy Spring everyone. Hey, do me a favor and let me know if you are here okay?
Love and Hugs, Laurie
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