Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Trying To Get Back On Track Here

Boy, have I been in a funk for the past week or two. Nothing urgent going on but lots of little things all adding up to a funky place to be in. I have been in my head a lot and it is non productive this time around. My husband and two sons are feeling the job stresses of the economy and I worry for them in between praying. Why is it so much easier for me to encourage others and fall so short on myself? It feels as if I don't practice what I preach at times. I guess I need a little encouragement from time to time myself, ya think?

I can't stand to watch the news anymore. It is too depressing or too stupid, depending on the subject. Economy or movie stars. Ten babies that I have prayed for this year have all died in the past two weeks. Six were in one family, their first pregnancy. How does anyone's heart handle this kind of heartbreak and devastation? I can't wrap my mind around it. At the same time, all I hear about here in California is the "Octumom" everywhere I go and since she lives only an hour away, it is local news. I am tired of her and I know she needs help big time. I feel sorry for her kids, all 14 of them.

Isaac has bronchitis and Hannah has had a sinus infection for the past week and I feel so bad for them. They are getting better now and I am thankful for this. We have been able to have a good time and be happy inspite of it. They are little troopers for sure. Just bundle them up and play outside where the germs can blow away.

Still working on the plumbing but everything is up and running. The cavern running under the house needs to be filled back in now and I feel sorry for the guys having to lug all that dirt back in and crawl under the house to pack it all back in before they can cement the huge hole and lay the new floor down. Isaac said he could make a suction blower machine to blow the dirt back in with a huge hose from the backyard where all the dirt is in mountain sized piles. If only he were older:) I just love that little guy to pieces. He is sunshine to my cloudy heart!!

A very dear friend of ours who has supplied us with collies for the past ten years died this month and her husband is just lost without her. They were married 10 years longer than Corky and me. She was a great lady and will be missed so much.

I don't have anything to really complain about so why am I complaining and letting the little things get to me? I guess it boils down to feeling very vulnerable with all that is going on around me. I don't question God and I never really have questioned Him. So I guess I question myself when these things happen and I sure don't have any answers to the things of this world. I know I could use a little encouragement to kick my sorry butt back into gear here soon and pull myself out of the "funk pit". I am looking forward to the grandkids coming tomorrow. The weather is supposed to be great all week and I am thankful for that. They LOVE playing outside and I love watching:) That's my plan for tomorrow.

If anyone reads this grumbling and still loves me inspite of it, thank you!!!

Love and Hugs, Laurie


pam said...

I love you more than ever!! This is who you are, you have a heart that accepts others for who they are and you love so unconditionally. But, in return your heart is open to hurt. You are such a dear friend and a source of strength to so many. It is okay for you to ask us to hold you up as well. I am praying for you and your family. I hope the kids are feeling better soon, and I pray for jobs as well.

What a blessing you are in my life, and so many others as well. I love you!

boltefamily said...

Loving you and sending prayers your way!

Cathy said...

I love you and didn't take any of this as grumbling. Just our humaness... I am sorry to hear of your friends passing. Also the 10 babies, I did read about the six. and the octomom make my heart so sad for those children. Someone needs to take control of the situation and I don't mean the mom. Even if she Was stable she could handle 14 children. Whew! I am glad to hear from you, I do get worried.

Needled Mom said...

It is only natural to get into slumps every now and then. Don't be so hard on yourself.

There is so much insecurity out there and I firmly believe that the media just finds the negatives. We have completely eliminated the network news at our house and life is so much more pleasant.

Like you, I am soooo tired of octomom. I wish the babies could all go to good homes where they could get what they will need. I feel so sorry for all fourteen of the children.

I hope the weather and the grandchildren cheered your week up. Both have a way of doing that.

Rach said...

We are all human, Friend. As such, prone to temporary grumpiness. You just hang in there!! :o)

Hugs and prayers coming your way. :o)

Angie said...

don't we all just need to get it off our chest every once in a while? and sometimes it really is the little stuff that adds up and wears us down. i love you laurie, and i am praying for you right now as I put this computer away and head to bed!

connie said...

Oh, I always love you, Laurie. Wish I was there when you were feeling this way. HOpe it's easier, now.